My Daily Life in Hell day 5 part 2Just woke up at night again and still feel like shit. Maybe if I act happy, they'll let me go, right..? I can't think anymore. Can't keep my mind toward a bright side to this. I'm shivering now it's so cold. I'm begging on my knees that somehow, everything will be ok. I'm an insane person, far from happyness and true joy. This is hell itself. What if she already replaced me..? Damn this Prozac. Everyone here that's taken it has gone mad and ended up here again. It's an endless cycle. What if I am obsessive..? Guess I am since I mentioned her name a shitload of times and it's probably annoying her. But I need to write all this. How I feel. Or I'll be sucked back into sanity. Sucked back to here..
My Daily Life in Hell Day 5 part 1Ivy; I'm so sorry I got you into this madness. This is nowhere near what I wanted. I thought we'd be together. Maybe even married. But this, Ivy I've lost my mind. This place..I don't want you to suffer anymore because of me. I don't want anyone to. I can't even think straight. I realized I can't take care of you or myself. Dammit, I just can't give you up. Who else will I have to love like this..? Dammit, this pain. It hurts, not just my heart, but my soul. This is the worst thing that I've been through combined. I'll never be the same. no one will. and I'm so, so sorry..